Is he really worth it........

Is he really worth
every tear
every bruise
every scream
is it worth seeing blood and throwing up
and standing in the middle of the street
when the rain is falling
is it worth yelling and screaming
going back to the blade
was it really worth the trip
the fall
the pain
the agony
worth the blade touching your cold skin
and feeling relieved after you've done it again
to pull
and rip
and scream
and cry
was he worth all of this
this past year crying and blood shot tears
that fall on a stainless body looking so pale , so thin , but yet so beautiful
but no one can see
no one cares
she's going down the wrong road
the road that leads to a false destiny
the chains hold her
and bind her grip to escape and leave this forbidden zone
she looks so weak
it's hard to tell
if she's going down this path again
is he really worth
every tear
every cut
every bruise
every scream
is he worth seeing blood and throwing up
and standing in the middle of the street when it's raining
is he worth all the tears and pain
Is he worth everything ??????????

I wrote this for anyone who's ever felt like this ,because any guy that makes you feel like shit and makes you go through this isn't worth it , but to some he is worth it . Having a guy who always makes you cry and do things you swore you'd never go back to isn't good and your better than that . now my guy he was worth every minute of my time until i took cocaine and thought about him and was out of my mind and had mixed emotions and decided to cut my wrist over and over again and took a knife to my arm and cut a 22inch line , we do stupid shit for guys sometimes and it's so not worth it. when some of us even go over the edge and end it , none is worth that pain.