WHY ?????

I don't know why I'm scared
Of seeing you in a small space,
I'm not as scared if it's in town
Or any other big place !

I want to get over what you did
I should have ages ago,
I have never spoke about it properly
But it's to hard you know.

It brings back TOO many memories
That i don't want to think about,
I've never spoke to you since
It makes me cry and want to shout.

I'm sick of thinking about everything
Cause one thing leads to another,
How could you do something like that
When i classed you as a brother !

You got away with way to much
And you'd done it before,
I know the girl you did it to
She was pregnant you know.

Her name was mentioned in court
But she didn't want you to find out,
That she was pregnant by you
That's without a doubt.

I hate it when i see you
Cause i know you rub it in,
Walking around with a smirk on your face
But you still committed a sin.

The anger i feel inside
Is mostly down to you,
And i have to take it out on myself
So i don't hurt anyone too.

I've tried all the ways possible
To get rid of this rage,
Cutting and screaming
In a lonely cage.

I don't know what to do anymore
I've really had enough,
If only i were someone else
Maybe things wouldn't have been as rough.