She yells at the top of her voice
her words directed at me
my eyes hurt with the difficulty
of not letting tears well up in my eyes
by body had stiffened my mind has humbled
she walks away
mot much time later, up in my room
my eyes burn with the tears i previously held in
my mind is no longer numb, it works at super speed
as tears race down my cheeks
i think horrid thoughts no one ever should
no decision is made on how to handle this pain
i cannot hold inside, for i do not know my own strength,
or even courage of action
i want to end this pain, i want to end it now
whether strip by strip, inch by inch, sip by sip,
bite by bite, or much quicker action
this pain hurts so bad,
i don't know how long i can handle it to last,
how much i can deal with or how quickly i will make it go away
should i make it be completely gone
and rid my burden from others right away
for that is all it is, something to cause annoyance and pain
to all of those i care so much about
i guess that is the only answer
the only one to relieve them from
the burden my life has become
