Emotionless

by kate   Dec 21, 2007


I'm sitting here on the edge of my bed.
the tears fall down and hit my cuts on my legs.
they burn in despair, my hands are shaking so badly.

in one hand I'm holding a bottle of pills.
there were 40 of them all together.
i took about 30 now, i got 10 left.

I'm holding a razor in the other hand.
I've cut myself about 30 times.
deeper then my broken heart.

the room is spinning, i see pictures over, over.
the time is running out, remember when you told me.
not to be afraid to tell you everything.

your the one who is on my mind.
the one who i fell so in love with.
now I'm lay on the floor.

the razor cut my face when i fell down.
the pills are gone they fallen out of the bottle.
I'm shaking and crying the tears are salty in the cut.

I'm better off not knowing what you actually felt.
what you really where to me was just another guy.
who kept on saying sorry for hurting me.

i was the stupid one to think that you'd change.
after the 4th time i just couldn't do this anymore.
I'm laying here trying not to blackout to finish this.

the door opens with the police and paramedics.
trying to figure out my story, the neighbor called it in.
heard me crying and screaming out your name.

they see my face bleeding and also my legs.
they removed the razor from my hands.
picked up the pills and put them in a plastic bag.

they carried my body out in a body bag.
told my parents that i overdosed on pills.
&& in the end cut myself up.
with written i love you forever.

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  • 15 years ago

    by Courageous Dreamer

    Oh my goodness.. this was soooooo intense.. wow.. um, I know a lot of people can relate to doing the same thing and wanting nothing more but to kill themselves.. because it will only put them out of the misery they are feeling.. I just hope this poem wasn't real. :| yikesss. a great way of expressing you feelings and emotions and such for sure though.. nice write.. 5/5.

  • 15 years ago

    by Michelle18

    This is good.but some parts seemed like it was more of a story rather than a poem.

    "your the one who is on my mind.
    the one who i fell so in love with.
    now I'm lay on the floor."

    ^^ in the last line "now im lay on the floor" should be changed to "now im lying on the floor."

    but overall it was pretty good and i still think it deserves a 5/5

  • 15 years ago

    by The Angel of Secrets

    Wow, I gotta say, I really liked this. (Gah, I'm no good at giving feedback). Just great:)

    Thanks for the comment on "The Road to Heaven"!

    The Angel of Secrets

  • 15 years ago

    by Lonely Rider

    Powerful write...
    deep and so emotional...

    "they carried my body out in a body bag.
    told my parents that i overdosed on pills.
    && in the end cut myself up.
    with written i love you forever. "

    ^^ this is so touching......

    good write...
    keep writing..

  • 15 years ago

    by sweet escape

    Wow this poem is so very deep and the pure emotion you put in it was very raw and powerful. i loved how you put the last out of body type of experence in the last stanza to end the story with. this poem is great and i give it a 5/5.

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