Only One Within

The pain and sadness I have left.
Only one of you can know.
And it's that special time of year.
When my blood turns white as snow.

I don't even know what it is.
That makes me feel this way.
I feel I'm loosing to a game.
That I don't even want to play.

I need to reach within myself.
I should no longer hide.
From the passion that awaits.
In my heart, deep inside.

But it is all just so hard.
When my life has been broken.
Like the sun hitting dawn.
When the morning has spoken.

Why can't I figure this out.
A piece to this puzzle is missing.
If things were like I've hoped.
It would be your lips I'm kissing.

I haven't found myself yet.
But I know that day will arrive.
By the time you come back for me.
I would've already said goodbye.