Alone

Do you know how it feels
To feel all alone,
Even in a crowded room
I still feel on my own !

I'm sick of living this friggin life
It's getting to hard to bare,
I've held on and tried to be strong
But now i just don't care !

I did want to live
But now I'm not sure,
I'm not bothered if i die
Is it just me feeling insecure ?

I hold back the tears
So that no one can see,
I'm hurt and I'm scared
So i cut after three.

I cant cry in front of people
And i can't cry on my own,
I don't have that space anymore
I wish i would have known.

If i can't end things
properly and in my own way,
Then lets hope it just happens
Cause i don't want to stay !!