How Long Will It Take?

How long will it take
for my heart to mend
for the pain to go
to no longer pretend

when will it beat
of its own accord
not dragging behind
its monotonous chord

when will i live
in the day that is here
not in the past
in the dark that i fear

its a new year
a new time a new day
but my broken heart
wonders astray

i want to be whole
to smile again
to laugh and enjoy
away from this pain

the sands of time
are holding back on me
i wish i could know
how long it would be