Truly Alone

I told myself I didn't love you anymore
That you were dead to me forever
And looking back,
It really was all just an act

I told myself it was all a lie
You didn't love me anymore than I did you
And looking back,
I know that wasn't true

Empty lies stab my broken heart
The one we tore apart
It's true,
I blamed you

I blamed it all on you and you ran with my blame
And looking back,
It puts me to shame
It's easy blaming someone when you know you're wrong
But running from yourself doesn't last long
I hid all my pain from years past inside
I didn't even notice I was lying
And before I knew it I was on the ground crying
Crying because of all the things I'd been through
Crying because I kept it all from you

I told myself it's all right to hide
No one cares about all the tears you've cried
You're always on your own
You'll always feel alone
But you showed me different and I'm sorry I didn't let you in
Our love was doomed before it could even begin

I stabbed my own heart
I just blamed you for my part
My feeble lies couldn't save me
And either could you
That was something I had to do

But you didn't stick around
And as my tears watered the ground,
In a flash you were gone
And this time,
I truly was alone.