My years

Words seem to fall in to my mind
i don't know why but I'm not one of a kind
many of us use words as a heartbreak release
it seems the best way to release the beast

if it was not for poems and the the words they bring
i think i wouldn't be here,in jail or something
trying always to be the nice guy
37 now and i wasn't always as nice as pie

but the years have made me a better guy
seen,done some bad things that would make you cry
but i have weathered the storm
and still sometimes wishing i had never been born

i now know i will go to heaven when my time is due
people say that guys lovely look how he pulled through
but one person got me to change
now that i have she don't want to know my name

its a shame because the best years where to come
children grown up lots of emotions undone
but I'm not going to change anymore
I'm going to be this good guy forever more

i just wish i could find the woman of my dreams
i thought i had her but i guess it was not to be
a simple man not much else to give
but alot of love as long as i shall live.