Sweet Release

So tiny was that little blade
Who would've known I'd keep it saved
Making the biggest and horrible pains
Making me cry to watch those stains

They'll never leave, they'll never go
And never will my friends know
The hurt I feel, the escape I need
Because it's so damn hard to breathe

I go to school with a happy face
Never wishing another to be in my place
I wonder how long I'll stay this way
Crying in the bathroom stall each day

I lost the love I wanted so bad
The one I worked for - it makes me so sad
The ribbons of red that tear along
Sometimes it doesn't even feel wrong

I want to know I'll be okay
I don't want to feel like this everyday
Someone come and take my pain
Just don't think of me insane

So the blade that carved and carved away
Sits in the same spot everyday
I pick it up and blood starts to cease
Oh, it's horrible, but a sweet release