Hate

I hate going to sleep because I know youre in my dreams

And I hate to cry because the weaker I seem

But I dont like to smile, because Im afraid of how Ill look

Afraid someone will laugh and catch me on their hook

I hate being alone because then I have to run

But I hate fleeing from problems because then youd think Im afraid

And I hate sitting here having to take the stuff I do

They use me because they know what happened to you

I hate living because I know youll never be back again

And I hate walking past them because they knew they were going to win

But I hate that they cheated because it wasnt fair to you

Lynching is a crime its not something youre supposed to do

Im afraid of looking at your grave stone because of the tears thatll flow

But I hate not looking because Ill forget your face, I know

And I hate that ground because the flowers are never right

So Im going to leave because I want your death to be out of my sight

I hate life because I cant lean on you

And I hate the fact that you wanted me to

I hate myself because I let you go

But I hate the world for moving way too slow

I hate you more than Ive ever hated anyone else

And I hate all the people who helped you leave

I know you didnt want to but you should have fought back

I hate you so much because you ripped out my heart and threw it on the ground

And I hate the way I talk because I dont make a sound

I hate all that you took because I dont know myself anymore

But I hate all that I do because Im giving up it seems

And I hate watching baseball because I know its no longer your team

I hate everything I lost because I dont know how to live now

I hate it all because I want to know how

Life could be so cruel

In a time when youre alone

Helpless and alone

I hate being alone because it means youre not here.