Misunderstood, and Lacking

You don't belong here, you're simply put up with
Stop kidding yourself, you matter? As if.
You'll never fit in, you'll never have friends
You'll never be loved, you'll never make amends

Never have, never will, you're an outsider
Behind your cowering back, they snicker
To your face, they just stare, and put on a fake smile
But trust me they won't put up with you in a while.

You're the odd one out, everyday, no matter when
You're mean, and cruel. Rude, again and again
You're the one doing all the wrong,
Stop blaming others, you're the one at fault

Ha, Ha, you're going to cry, thats it run off
They'll taunt you more, and you, they'll scoff
Then they'll see the real loser you are
They'll finally make you move afar.

***

One, two, three, four, five. Deep breaths, calm down.
Hold back those tears, don't dare you frown
If they ever saw you, all they'd do is worry
If they ever knew, they'd all be in a flurry

Loneliness is no sin, just something missing.
Stop being like this, face the truth, stop running
They love you, they're your friends, they're everything
You trust them, and without them you'd lose all meaning

Stop being silly, but on a brave face
You can win this high stakes race
Just take deep breaths and take a step back
Close your eyes, concentrate, nothing you lack

Tell them everything, all you keep locked inside
They'll listen, console, trust me, they won't mind
Be the person you are, bold, energizing
Stop being shy, keeping to yourself, stop lying.

That's not who you are, and some of them, they know
So start being outright silly, start dancing in the rain.
Kick up your feet, who cares what they say
Be merry always, like the month of may.

I wish I could believe this, I really wish I could
But its just so unbelievable, I'll just be misunderstood
And I'll always be the one behind the mask.
Never taking the chance of completing the task.

Me, I'll always be afraid of freedom
Of everything, even my own wisdom
And me, I'll always be on the outskirts
Watching everyone else, flourish.