I leave myself down in the dumps
Never convinced that I was done...

The day's incomplete
Without a yell or two...

Morning's fine;
Sun laps my skin...

My dream, my fantasy:
Everything about her...

Months were spent for you... endlessly writing and...
I dedicated myself to you... my heart, mind, body...

Sorry for the times when I seemed so lame.
After I told you, I couldn't act the same...

It's come to the point
I can't take anymore...

My mind, in the state it's in
Fears what the future brings...

I'm always smiling, always laughing.
The upward curl on my lips ae all that's seen...

The view across from me
Familiar yet different...

I'm thankful for my family,
I'm thankful for my home...

Thud. Thud. Thud. Thud.
My heart pounds as I close my eyes...