The air is thick with violet hue,
A gentle hum where sunlight lies...

?My brain was stuck in neutral gear,
A fuzzy, slow, meandering smear...

In the quiet hum of the evening,
after the movie credits rolled...

I'm afraid to answer that
Because I'm not fine...

In the deep expanse of a boundless sea,
A jellyfish swam, lost in misery...

In the silence of the night, I lay my head,
Afraid to sleep, for nightmares fill my bed...

Killing myself is all I can think about
Shame amd embarrassment keeps me quiet...

The ground is falling and taking me with it
Like sharp edges releasing a silent cry...

I am haunted by my past
Though, not as it seems...

Writing used to be easy
I would put ink onto paper...

Is this manic or is this just fantasy?
Catching myself as I climb the mountain...

Dark thoughts filling my actions
Pumping my veins with venom...