Is this what he thought about our love? to go and leave me, and come when he feels like it? but this is not love from his side.

Y is he torturing me if he knows what i am doing is the right thing for me?

I love this guy very much. How can I tell him that I want him to ask my family for my hand. Also because I am tired of hiding our relationship/love from our families.
Please ppl show me a way.