A few months ago I was dying of a disease,
Depression defeating me, despite my displease...

I can have a manicure or chew my nails,
leave myself dirty or obsessively clean...

Ten years after high school ends,
There's a reunion to see old friends...

My mind flutters through the world,
Intently picturing bliss...

I feel mesmerised by every word you say even if...
I feel enchanted by the way you walk when you pass...

Fight back; say your words, cut into my skin,
Seek revenge over my truth, but you can never win...

For JAY :)
I am drained of power and also of hope...

It has gotten so hard and I canâ??t understand,
The way that I actually feel...

I drank a glass of philtre,
That made me fall for you...

I know it’s hard to fight,
Trust me I battled for awhile...

I forget that I loved you,
And that I felt for you so much...

She gained it all
And I watched her fall...