here is the truth....

Wow, Thanks agian for all you that posted.

-i love my friends
-i love people very easily, anyone i get to now and is nice
-i cry at everything...
-but i cry late at times...when the person leaving..is gone
-im a bad girl...mean and everything...
- i always promise myself il change, ill be nice to everyone
-i never say no...dats why i never no when im being used
- if im being used and someone tellls me that..i tell them im not although i no its the truth.
-i forgive easily.
-i love poetry...and reading alot.
- i like most of my poetry, but i wish i could use better words like others....
-i have best friends...but then..i have many many many.
-i want to be successful in life..but i keep thinking i wont...

dats not all of it...but ill think...
xxx

Wow to think one man's confession lead to all of this. It's actually beautiful in a way. I suppose I ought to start my confessions list:D

~I left this site because I knew my friend would trash my poems because we got into a fight
~I came back to this site because my friends wanted me to, even though I don't think I can write poems anymore
~I actually don't have a religion, even though I say I am Wicca, I can't call myself that because I've been too emotional lately to think about it
~I havn't been to school in a few months
~I'm afraid that when I go back to school next semester the same thing will happen again; I won't be able to handle the pressure and I'll crack.
~I'm desperately afraid of slipping back into that suicidal, crazy person that I was
~I think I am slipping...
~I did really bad things when I was little to my nephew...I was young, but I should have known better, and I will live in shame for the rest of my life because of it
~I'm impulsive when it comes to sex and food, even though I try my best not to be
~I'm really bossy to my boyfriends, not because I want to tell them what to do, but because at first when I ask they are always willing so after a while I forget the formality...
~The reason why I cut my hair really short is because I'm tired of having pretty hair when the rest of me isn't pretty.
~I'm afraid of people leaving me, to the point where I have panick attacks if I even dream of my mother dying, or my friend leaving....
~When my father died 3 years ago....I was relieved....because he was sick for 6 years...and I couldn't deal with it anymore....I live in constant shame of that as well....
~Sometimes I do what other people do, because people like it when they do that and I desperately want to be liked...even though I pretend to never care what people think
~Thanks to this confessions I'm pretty sure most of my fears are normal :D
~*Ley*~

^ "through writing we relate and share, that in itself fills the void of emptiness" what bob said is so true...

Keep on sharing it really does help to let other people know

Okay, my turn...eeeek.

-I am way too emotional and I often let my emotions rule me.
-I'm often insecure about myself.
-I can not function when anyone I care about gets mad at me.
-I've cried myself to sleep way more times than any person should in their lifetime.
-I make up too many excuses.
-I procrastinate way too much.
-I pretend to be so innocent sometimes, even when I'm not.
-I bottle up my anger.
-Even my closest family and friends can't tell when they've truly hurt me, because I hold it all inside.
-I'm totally used to people automatically liking my personality and when I come across someone who doesn't, I stress myself out trying to figure out what exactly they don't like about me.
-I can't say no to people.
-I'm too much of a people pleaser.
-I forgive way too easily.
-I'm terrified of failing at anything in life.
-I'm sooooo nosey.
-I'm fiercely competitive.
-I over analyze every situation, so much so that I often keep myself up at night.
-I talk too much.
-I love to dance.
-I have an addicitve personality.
-I think I might be slightly addicted to sex.

...there's more. Just can't think of them right now.

okies, ill go, and joe, your awsome to do what you did.

- i am so afraid of being let by the people i love, i end up pushing them away
-not cutting is the hardest thing for me
-i smile every day, and really i feel like im falling apart
-i build walls up so high, no one gets in
- i act like im strong, and ppl think i am, but im not
-my biggest fear is not being loved
-i love to write poetry
when i write its from my heart
-i hate when people lie to me
-i often lie to my friends
-i dont like people knowing the truth about me
- i feel different and sepret from all my friends
- i talk every chance i get
- i love giveing ppl advice,
- i HATE getting advice
- i never mind my own bizness
- i hate when people dont mind theirs
- its extreamly hard for me to forgive people
- its hard for me to trust people.
- i lie to make my self the person i really want to be
- i hate when people lie to me
-i hate dishonest people
- i love the dark
- i hold every thing in untill i cant any more
-im extreamly opinionated
- i am the worst at spelling
-i hate when people type in messenger talk, but i often do it outta habbit
- its hard for me to tell some one when im wrong.

love always
Pk, bianca

Thank you for posting and this is excatly why I posted this thread on here. Kodos to you and everyone else that is coming clean.

~Joe~

just a quick note,

I loved my ex-wife enough to leave her.
I still love my ex-wife and probably always will.

hey, you're right. I'm one of those people that CAN NOT stand a liar. and I don't lie and I just wish nobody could. and I always do want the truth, but when it's given to me...I can't handle it. and I do care about the truth though, very much. but now I'm just starting to wanna be lied to. but I dont know

Well, keep your head up high and wish for the best.

~Joe~

Nebraska? Well, as far as I know, wherever you go there will be some kind of gang.

~Joe~

my confessions:

-I'm reticent most of the time so I get overlooked nearly all the time
-I'm always being compared to my dad
-everybody thinks I'm way too serious
-don't have many friends, they all moved away
-I miss philly
-I forgive way to easily which has caused some ppl. to run over me
-I hate traveling but my parents love it so I'm always on the road somewhere
-scary movies give me nightmares
-never taken illegal drugs or consumed alcohol
-am secretly a herbalist/ somewhat vegetarian
-i love nature
-can be stubborn at times
-I smile even when I'm sad

i can't watch scary movies. they upset me sometimes and i've actually gotten to the point where i puked after i saw two movies. it was hours later and when i was trying to fall asleep though, but i still puked because the movies.

great confessions JJ. i find that i relate to most of what you said.

~Jacklyn

Chris....I'm so disappointed.....Kelly Clarkson????

ahhh, there is nothing wrong with Kelly Clarkson...

I like all kinds of music, including Country

~Joe~

OK here goes...

I don't like to be lied to
I am a very honest person
I love God
I love my children
I am getting divorced
I love to help people
I am very shy
I am a sunday school teacher
I love animals (dogs are my favorite)
I don't like to hurt people
I am sometimes a little bit dingy (it's the blonde hair)
sometimes I get grouchy
I am not jealous
My favorite band is ZZ Top
I still love my husband with all my heart
right now I am not happy with my life
I smile a lot
I sometimes jump to conclusions
I have migraines
I would like to lose a little weight
I have big feet (size 11)
I would like to go back to school
money isn't that important to me

Tammy even though you aren't very happy with your life right now i would like you to know that you'll make it through. i only kind of know you from a distance and from what you have confessed but i can tell you are a very loving women who deserves to be happy. and since you love God and most of the things posted i hope you believe things will turn out for the better. i'm sorry to hear about your husband and the difficult times you may be facing because of it. i know that divource isn't easy on anybody because of the experiance of my uncle and his ex- wife.

remember that beauty is not what we look like but what we hold inside. and you appear to be a beautiful person from what you have just discribed yourself to be.

hope you find your happiness.

~Jacklyn

Thank you Jacklyn!
I do know everything will turn out ok. Yes divorce is hard, but it's not the end of the world. I think it is harder on the kids than it is on us. That saddens me that they have to go through this. I feel so sorry for them.
Thanks for the encouragement though!
Take care

divource is so hard on the kids! definately from what i have seen from my cousins. just it's important for the parents to keep their cool around the kids when they are together. the kids will love their parents and even though the parents are no longer together with the love they use to have they need to still be respectful and civilized for each other. least this is what i feel would make it easier for my cousins. you just need to make it comfortable for the kids. but then don't make the mistake and feel like you own the world towards them. you still need to have a backbone with the kids and teach them the nessicaries of life, and not give them everything they ask for. this my aunt could learn to help make their life easier as well. i offer you my best luck!

~Jacklyn

Wow Joe, I love what you jave started. lol this is like a confession booth, and to tell the truth - I trust you guys more than I do a pope. So I guess If I am going to speak up, I should do it here.

-I lie alot... uncontrollably. But I always stay true to myself ~ who I am.
-I tell complete strangers (on this site) more than I tell anyone I actually know. I don't let anyone 'into my life' and I guess it could be time to change that around...
-I go to school, but I don't try, don't care and don't listen.
-I try each and everyday to try and think of a way to get out of this place. Be anywhere but here.
-I love my boyfriend to death, and yet feel like I could probably do better than him. (As conceded as that sounds, there's alot behind it)
-I stand up for myself and others whenever possible; however that is just the thing that keeps getting me in trouble.
-My confidence level in anything (talents/look/intelligents and otherwise) is near the negative end of the scale
-I've made alot of friends on this site and am eternally greatful. I thankyou all, for teaching me and being there for me - even when you had no idea that you were.
-I've been on the computer way too long, and always am... I think my butt will soon be non existant, so I shall be leaving once more - for a little while :P

Steph I commend you for your honesty, as I do the rest of you.
But I have a few questions for Steph. I hope you can lend some insight on my situation.
We have 5 children. Only one of them give us many problems. He is 13 years old, and lies so much I can't even describe it. I mean like probably 98% of what comes out of his mouth is a lie. He also is always trying to find a way out of here. (his home) This has been going on for 5 years now. He has a very good home life with 2 parents who love him very much & would do anything for him.
I just don't know what he is expecting. The other 4 kids are very happy with their lives (other than we are going through a divorce right now) We have taken him to doctors, counseling, you name it we have probably tried it. Other than just letting him do whatever he wants, which is what he wants us to do. He has an appointment with a psychiatrist in March. A lot of people have said he is trying to get attention...but he gets a ton of attention. Also, it seems the more attention you give him the worse he gets. It's like he tries to walk all over you then. I am trying hard to help him but I am having a hard time trying to understand what's going on with him.

My question for you Steph is WHY do you lie so much & what is it you think would be better if you weren't at home?

If you can't help me with any answers that's ok. I am just trying to understand why some kids are this way.
Thanks
Take care!

hmm.. is this like a post about all your lies or something? well if it is.. the only lie i probably told in this forum was uhmm.. nothing really.. im still kinda new so yeah..

LOVE, PEACE, && HAPPY ENDINGS..

The Truth About Scooby

- I am not 5'4 i am actually 5'2 but i never lied about that i actually did think i was 5'4

- I get my nails done every two weeks :S
- My hair color is really a brunette and its curly
- I cry when i am alone for a long time
- I have really bad nightmares
- i sleep a maximum of 4 hours a night
- i drink a least 4 pots of coffee
- starbucks is my church
- My dad is an addict
- I failed my exam
- I dont wanna be a registered nurse anymore
- i wanna be a social worker
- I dont where t shirts cuz i have really bad exima
- I where my pjs 90% of the time
- My mom is my best friend
- I never lied on this web site ever
- I am a horrible liar which is a good thing i guess
- i trust too easily
- I forgive even easier

okay STALKER SUNNY OVER THERE ahahahaha after ever post i make you keep writing i love you scooby

I LOVE YOU TOO DAMN IT

Thanks Bob! I appreciate your advice. I seriously do think it is a psychological problem. My husband has a long history of schizophrenia in his family. I have read up on childhood schizophrenia and though some symptoms do seem to fit, a lot of others don't. I think probably the best thing we can do at this point is take him to the psychiatrist as I have planned, just to be sure of what we are or are not dealing with.
Believe me when I say we have tried everything we can possibly think of to help him & have yet to see a positive outcome. I know there is a solution out there somewhere, I just have to keep trying until I find it. I can't imagine how his adult life will be if something doesn't change. All I can think of is prison & I know enough about prison to know I do not want any of my children there.
Thanks again Bob. Your advice is much appreciated!
Hope your new year is a great one as well.
Take care.

Also Bob, he has a total disregard for rules & tells us straight up he doesn't want to listen to the rules and that he's not going to & we can't make him. His lies & attitude problem have caused a lot of issues for the whole family. He steals money out of my purse, steals the other kids things, or hides their stuff or throws it away. When he gets mad at them, he bleaches their favorite clothes. (this happens a lot) I don't know what else to do with him.
I should tell you we have tried kind of a reward system for telling the truth...it didn't work. We offered to buy him a new motocross bike & put him in motocross, new riding gear, the whole works. We have tried several other things as well. He wouldn't even try. He says he likes being the way he is and he won't ever change.
I don't know if he just likes the "drama" in all this mess or what.
Once when I was looking through information on mental health, I read about psychopaths and it described his behavior perfectly. Even though they can't diagnose it in young teens, it still kind of scared me.
This has me seriously questioning my sanity. I feel like I am going to just totally lose it sometimes. I am starting counseling on Friday myself to help me learn to deal with him. (hopefully it will help) I am just out of ideas, but not out of hope.
:)

Well, personally I don't want to be at home because everything your son has is something I've always wanted and never had. *breathes* alright, well nobody, not one of my friends nor my teddy bears are even talked to about this lol. But I can see you need help and you asked a good question. In my situation, my mom has been through a number of boyfriends, and one husband. None of them good people, except for my dad. She left my dad because he didn't work, and ever since I could remember, the only place i wished to be was there. Becuase that was really the only place someone loved me more than money or a boyfriend. My mom's current boyfriend we have been living with for years and he scares the crap out of everyone that's lived with him, my sister ran away when I was little and left me with him - and that too was scary being as I lost my idol.yes my big sister was my idol lol. And I'm still dealing with him calling us useless dirt under his feet. My mom doesn't deserve it and neither does my little brother, so I'm constantly trying to get him to stop. I'll talk back and do what I can to stick up for my family, but... I get no where... For that reason (mostly) I want to get away from here. I want to go live with my dad, finish school and hopefully start a life with my boyfriend...For the most part , I'd say your son has everything I've ever wanted really, a happy family with lots of love...
I do believe that it could be psychological; however, I remember once, I went to my dad's for the summer to live with him.And he loved me so much it was almost smothering. I mean, I was definately happy and didnt want to leave, but there were moment when he just tried to help a little bit too much. Always thinking that I had psychological problems from my past memories and what not, trying to get me to cry - because apperantly I don't show my emotions enough, and that too is a psychological issue... So, though I sort of doubt this is it, I'd almost say that maybe he feels like he is getting too much attention. Taking him to a therapist/psychologist and what not just might seem like you're telling him there's something wrong with him...Have you tried giving him his own breathing space? Letting him go to a friends for a while and experiencing what life is really like out there? I know that's a huge step, and probably a really hard one to actually pull off - but my mom had to (well she didn't have to, but she didn't have any problem doing it *rolls eyes*) do that with my sister. My sister ended up being 13 and pregnant/sick, and lost a few babies...and blahblahblah.. Point is, now she is 20, happy and so much more grown up than she used to be. She's learned alot from the mistakes...
Hopefully he'll realize what he's got at home and want to stay...Well I can't really promise that, being as I don't know him nor how bad he is. And it's very possible that you can't do anything for him, except for that psychologist idea. I'm sorry if I couldn't be of much help, I'll definately keep my eyes open for anything I might hear on that sort of topic. I wish you the best of luck with everything...

I think it's really a teenage issue, alot of us go through that. He does seem rather bad though, and I'm sorry I can't help more than this. I'm doubting it is just a teen thing, but then again I always doubt myself... hmmm...Well the best I can do is keep my eyes open for anything else I may come across or learn about something like this. In the mean time, we're all here for you. Keep strong, and don't let go of that hope :)

Thank you for the response Steph.
I am really sorry to hear things are like that for you & your family at home. It truly makes me sad to hear that. Just remember someday you WILL be out of there- only a couple of more years :)
Won't your mom let you go live with your dad? If not, then at least you get to see him & spend time with him. I think it's great that he loves you so much. I wish you all the best in life. Hang in there :)

Now as far as my son is concerned, we have let him go stay at his grandparents house for a few weeks. When he came back home he was 10 times worse than he was before. I seriously think he needs a mental assesment. I don't think it's just a teenage thing, mostly because he was only7 years old when he started acting this way. I have a houseful of teens, they all have their moments but they are nothing even close to how he is.

Thanks for trying to help though.

Italian: Sorry My Reply Is Late, But I Must Admit I Admire You Greatly For Your Honesty, Some People Never Come Clean, And I'm Honored That We Have People Like You On This Site With Enough Maturity To Come Forth And Be Totally Honest....Honesty Is The Best Policy xoxo-Nikki-xoxo

Thank you Nikki.

This is one of the reasons I made this thread not just to let everyone know the truth about me, but a place for people to post stuff about themselfs.

~Joe~

Hi

Many people are accusing me of reporting everyone in the chatroom for no reason.

I would like to tell everyone the truth.

I am not reporting everyone, and im not reporting for no reason. If I report someone, it is simply because they are not following the rules.

I tell them to please stop ahead of time, and they don't listen, so I report them, and I tell them that I will report them if they don't stop, and they still progress.

Anyways, enough of that. I am just fussturated with people attacking me for no reason.

well, keep the posts coming, this is an excelent thread in my opinion.

~Joe~

who i am:

* i am a 14 year old girl,
* i dont like letting people in,
* when i do i just get my heart crushed,
* i always pretend im ok even though im not,
* i self-harm,
* i have over come buliemia although i let it slip sometimes,
* i hate living at home,
* i dread going to school,
* i have great friends,(who i dont deserve)
* basically i am a depressed loser who couldnt actually think of a nice thing to put on here.

love jess XxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXx

Kudos to all of you!!!

~Joe~

Hehe, Bob, I do thankyou for that. The statement made me think, and I'm sure it's half true; however I seem somewhat unsatisfied with your answer to the life long question 'what is truth?'... So this philosopher is going to keep up her search :P

okay the truth about me.....

i think i may be bisexual
cant spell for nothing
i hate school
dont have any friends really
wish i had a real mom
my sister is my hero
wish i sorta had like the brady bunch family
have used drugs and alchole before
sometimes still do
smoke cigarettes
dont know what im gonna do with my life
wish something grand would happen in my life
i am terrified of the dark, or being at my house (or anywhere) alone at dark...(would rather kill myself)
terrified of clowns (and not just like a regular fear... a really huge fear..)
my grandma is the most annoying person in the whole world

well thats about it right now i guess

Here is the Truth...

I have been very depresed lately

I have no friends, except for those of you online

more to come, can't think of anything else

~Joe~

The truth...

~Im afraid I'm slipping back into my depression for the 2nd time

~Each day has been harder to get out of bed
I go to bed earlier than i used to, thinking "whats
the point anymore"

~my friends at home are slipping away

~I worry about anything and anyone

~I havent been eating alot of food latly i lost
maybe 10+ pounds in about 4 days

The truth:

I think depression is attacking many right now; including me

I have lost the will to do everything that I once loved

I no longer care to be around anyone, or to get out of bed for that matter

I think I have lost track of who I am

Today is actually better than most this week. I actually made it out of bed.

I let a man that I love get away because I was to afraid of feeling pain that love can bring.

mmm ... o well maybe tomorrow I will have more positive things to say

--Sherry Lynn

More Truths:

I've been here numerous times, trying to put what I really want to say down... And it's still not here...
But I decided that I should put something down, because I really like this idea, and hope to have some more confessions from people. And hopefully sooner or later, some more confessions from myself. So to keep this post on the front page - this is my contribution.