Just a Few Lessons

Last night
For the first time
In a long time
I was completely honest with myself

I took a walk through my mind
(And a run through my heart)

And I was forced
To come to terms with a few things
I've been denying lately

I've discovered that,
(Even though I never
In a millions years
Would have thought it
Especially at this point in my life)
I am the jealous type.

I've realized that,
(Even though I've tried
Many times in many ways
To make it work
The way it should)
My relationship with my brother will never be the same.

I've decided that,
(Even though I still
Feel butterflies in my stomach
And goose bumps on my skin
Every time I hear from him)
Some guys just aren't worth it.

I've acknowledged that,
(Even though he never says it
And instead can be a bit harsh
And often demanding
And all-together too stubborn)
My dad loves me and would give anything for me to be happy.

I've rediscovered many times that
(Even though I get sick of them
And they're always in my business
Giving me advice I don't want
And usually think I don't need)
My sisters are my strongest and most faithful support system.

I've been taught that,
(Even though there are
Plenty of cases in the world
Where serial killers and rapists
Come after you and hunt you down)
Not everyone you meet online is bad.

I've accepted that,
(Even though I'm getting older
And growing up each day
And will continue to age
My siblings don't care)
I will forever be two.

I've learned that,
(Even though accidents happen
And things get screwed up
And hearts get broken
There's always a moment in each day)
Life becomes completely worth it.

Copyright 2009 S. Sieglaff