I miss us.

by lovemehateme   May 17, 2010

[[this is just me venting.. its not rely a poem.]]

Weak in the heart.
Im on the edge, falling apart.
Buckets of tears, I'm living my worst fear... being without you.
I no longer feel alive, and on my own its more than hard to survive.
I call to you hoping you hear my desperate screams, with sleepless nights and broken dreams.
I can't live like this much longer, I want you in my arms again to help me get stronger.

I guess I'm to afraid to face you again, which is another fear of mine that I let win.

I'm still confused on what happened though....
One day were the happiest we could ever be, the next day was 2 years as a couple just washed and wasted away.

I wait for you call, hoping that you'll be the next one to text me tell me your okay.... I can't tell you how I long to hear I love you just one last time.

It was hard to let you go.
You probably can't even imagine.

I'm sorry I embarass you.
I'm sorry I cause you so much pain.
I'm sorry I fought with you.
I'm sorry I let you go once.
I'm sorry I caused so much tension.
I'm sorry I never trusted you.
I'm sorry I chose my best friend over you all those times.
I'm sorry I wasn't enough.
I'm sorry I worried all tha time.
I'm sorry I didn't understand.
I'm sorry I was never there.
I'm sorry I made you hurt yourself.
I'm sorry I made you worry all tha time.
I'm sorry I hurt myself over you when I should just came to you.
I'm sorry I would'nt let you help me with my problems.
I'm sorry for our breakup.

I wana make up...
I know for a fact that would be hard or it may not even happen at all.

Yea I act like im okay,but tha truth is its all an act.
I'm F^cked up emotionally.
I fake these smiles.
Hide the tears til no ones watching.
Hide the scars.
Hide the bruises.
Hide the hurt.
Try my best to show I'm not in pain.

I miss you... so much.

Why can't things just go back to the way they used to be.
I cry EVERY nite over you.

I was stupid for letting you go.
I was selfish.
I was spiteful.
I was never thinking of you.
So many thoughts and emotions run through my head every day controlling me in ways ive never felt before.

How do I stop this?
Youu were there to do that for me.

How can I make these feelings disappear?
Youu were the one to make them disappear.

How can I stop loving you?
It wasnt hard for you to stop loving me,or was it?

Questions with no answers....

Lies I'm not sure of.

But I miss you... more than you'll ever know.

I think of you constantly.

Thinking of if I'll ever get another chance with you... I dream of that. But something tells me it wont come true.

If you read this I hope you respond, I have no idea without you how im livin on.

I'm pretty sure you have another girlfriend.
She's probably a whole lot prettier than me.
Smarter than me.
Better than me at everything.

Do you still think of me at all?
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Do you want me back like I want you back?
Do you care like I care?

It's tough, and these days creep by with nothing but pain.

Believe me or not...
One thing I am sure of is that I love you with all my heart and I always have... always will.

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  • 7 years ago

    by ShIsAnA tHe OnE aNd OnLy

    Man! im so sorry to hear this but it happends to the best of us right?? it proves that we are humans and we have emotion. keep writing 5/5 love it