Well done on this. It's certainly worth highlighting thoughts of deep depression. Suicide is of course is an extreme, but we all toy with that thought from time to time. We allow ourselves to believe that death is the only way when life feels so hard. For most this passes and life works it's magic and reveals why it's so damn good to be alive. Pain of loss never leaves us, it becomes part of us, toughens our mental strength. To enjoy life one needs to have strength too. Think of a boat. It floats and in it you can travel the world. The boat looks beautiful, it has lines that can make an eye sing; it is also very strong - it needs to be to endure life. Be the the boat, embrace your strength and know that after every storm there's a beautiful sunrise.