My babys smile

Why do i hurt this bad,
Especially when i have someone to love?
Whats the reason for all this hurt,
When a baby was sent from above?

Some days i want to cry,
Others i want to die.
Then i see a sparkle in her eye.
All i can do is ask myself why.

Why i do feel so sad,
When i have an angel in my life?
I wish these tears would go away,
Why am i going through all this strife?

i ask god how to make this pain go away,
For some reason he wont give me an answer.
So as i lay my baby down to sleep,
In here ears i whisper a little prayer.

God, what am i doing wrong?
i love this baby with every beat of my heart,
please help me lord,
Is there any way you can give me a fresh start?
All i do is cry,
I feel no reason to live.
Whats the reason your putting me through this?
The hurtful things i have said, can you please forgive?

When my angel wakes up,
i hope i can hold her without denial.
some how an amazing feeling fell upon me,
Once i seen my baby's smile.

i no longer want to cry,
Or want my life to end.
Because of my baby's smile,
I am now more reliable!

Thank you god,
For answering my prayer.
I can now be a good mother.
The happiness in my voice i hope you can hear.