Dad your not worth my time screw you

I want to fall to my knees and make you realize this isn't a game were playing
your suppose to be understanding and always there to talk to but thats the thing your not even a dad to me
more like a friend but not even that
you put me down and tell me I'll never be anything
like all my other cousins and that I'll be working at MC- Donald's with no cash and barely slipping by
I'm only 17 but you say i have the mentality of someone in middle school
and all i want to do is show you the cuts on my arms and let you know there because of you
every time you put me down
every time you say I'm worthless
every time you say I'm like the spinning image of my mom
every time you say these things i want to freaking kill you
you have no clue what you make me feel
and you will never really know just how you make me feel
you will never realize how much i needed you in my life but you were never there for me
to hold my hand or be there for me
mom was always there instead putting band aids over the bruises that you left
all i want to do is show you the cuts on my arms
and let you know there because of you
every time you put me down
every time you say I'm worthless
dad every cut I've made was because of you
i wish i hadn't but i swear to you
i would never let you back in
I'm so done with you
only if you saw the tears I'm done crying
hoping that you'd change and that you were different
but you'll always be the same
dad i don't want you in my life anymore
it's not worth my time