Dead But Not Gone

My mouth goes dry
I stand there my mouth wide open
Not knowing what to say
Not believing what I'm hearing

My life seems pointless
I didnt feel the need to live anymore
Without a warning
I'm told the one i truly love is DEAD

Knowing that he is no longer there
I feel him fading from my memories
I start to feel light headed
I try not to cry in front of everyone
But it all bursts out anyways

I crumpled down on my bed
and cried myself to sleep
I dream of my love and the great times
then it turns into a nightmare of his death

Its been a week since his death
Finally saying my last goodbye
Over his grave i cry out ..."I love you"
I feel the tears pour from my eyes

One last time i remember the great times
I remember the first date and kiss
I remember him at our beautiful wedding
I realize then he may be dead but he isn't gone