Fear of the Becoming

It seems like you were sent from above,
To pull me out of darkness and show me love.
I never express my true feeling to you,
For I fear of being hurt and shunned.
I hide my emotions under a mask,
A mask that shows only carefreeness and happiness.
My laughter hides the sound of my breaking heart.
No one can hear it shatter into pieces.
No one but me.
It echoes through my lonely, empty soul.
I doubt anyone can save this shell,
From falling straight to hell.
Your smile warms me up,
Turning ice into water.
My heart has never danced in the meadow of love,
For it fear of being broken.
I could never say the words "I love you."
Even if I did, you may love another.
So, I'll stay in the shadows, watching,
Trying to gather my courage up.
One more thing before I end,
You take the breath right out of me.
This is all I shall say, only for today.