Why

Why do I always lose the who one loves me?
Why do I always lose the one who understands me?
Why do I always lose the one who can feel me?

He was just my soul
He came whenever I gave him a call
He was my heart
He told me once, we would never be away from each other
He promised me and said: we would never be apart.
I believed in him, and put my faith in him.
But his promise couldn't last for him
Neither it didn't last for me.

He left me alone, crying in that dark cave.
I wished if I was dead and buried in a grave.
I kept calling for him to come back at night
I kept getting those passed memories.
They were so obvious in my mind.
And were so bright.

I kept calling for him.
But he didn't come back.
My days after him became so black.
So mysterious, so confusing.
I feel that I am suffering from an illusion.
Because of him.
But he didn't come back.
And will never be back.
And I shall not see him again.
I am suffering from that crack.
That infected the wall of our love.

I wish to see him again
But he will never be back.