So Fake

How hard is it to understand?
I won't obey your command
You aren't in control of me
I'm my own person, I am free

You think that just because I fell in love
that I'm something to take advantage of
Well boy you're surely wrong this time
You have no right to say "you're mine"

You realize that I won't obey
so trick me into letting you stay
then pain appears by your hand
as your wants become demands

A strike to chest, a blow to the face
Soon I'm begging to get out of this place
Marks of pain upon my skin
But I take my hurt and hide it within

Ashamed of what you've gone and done
so long ago I thought you were the one
Now your nothing more then scum
How could I have been so dumb

I took the hits, I took the blame
I was the one who felt ashamed
I held back the tears, I held back the lies
And I still do, wishing he dies

I knew one day I'd hurt, this much is true
I just never thought it'd be by you
I let you in what a big mistake
Your love is like my smile...oh so fake

~*this poem was for my best friend who's b/f had started abusing her. I wrote this to get her to realize she needs to do something about it. She's finally taking action and I'm so proud of her and how strong she's staying.