You left me behind. rest in peace

I remember on your birthday,
I sat beside your crumbling headstone,
Left a note, a card, a present,
and then i left you there.
but, well its hit me since you left us,
that i don't no what to do, now.
i just got my head down and dealed with it.
If you were still here then i'd ask you what i'd do?
but your not.
i just get a bit scared every now again.

i hope i made you proud.

i was angry with you for not staying,
you threw your things away when you got more poorly,
so i guess i hated you for leaving us with nothing.
yeah i miss you, but i got nothing to remind me of you.