Moving on

In 1989
when i was born
my eyes opened
into a room i thought was full of love and warmth

few years down the road
I'm walking around
looking up for mommy and daddy
who were no were to be found

years more down the road
i still do not see
that the family i have been born into
was not meant for me

its now Thursday morning
my 14 birthday
i get up for school
not looking for delays

and then it hit me
dad in the room with women
women i have never seen
hookers are what we call them

the past was rough
mom was to sick to take care of us
we have been put in foster homes
a few times already

and dad, me not realizing till now was worse then mom
not only did he mess with different women
every night but he was later discovered to be
a crack head, a cocaine addict and finally he admitted to being a alcoholic

see, my whole life i did not get the picture until now
those times that i was being taken out of my home
by people that i did not know, those were people
that were only trying to help me

but i was to young to realize that until now
I'm going to be the only child out of five to
graduate high school

and i am going to do it
I'm sick of being around screw ups
so I'm keeping my head up high
i have a new family

and i don't let anything keep me from moving forward

there are people in this world that think
just because they hit one bump in the road
that they should just give up hope and
no longer move forward

well i can tell you right now
just to give you a heads up
the only thing you can do is
use everything to your advantage

and don't let anything stop you
just because your life was rough
does not mean that you have to be
because your the one that decides
whether or not to put that right foot
in front of the left foot and keep moving forward
that is all that you can do
because we are the ones that decide
what happens in our lifes
not our past
so keep your head up
and just keep moving forward

i have to go now
or i will be late to class
and I'm not talking about high school
thats over with , I'm in college now=)