Sixteen Roses

by gasping for air   Jun 2, 2004


He stood over her grave,
With tears in his eyes.
They weren’t the first ones he had shed,
And they wouldn’t be the last.
He’d never get over,
The fact that she was gone.
Or that,
She had taken her own life.

It hurt him,
To know that she had wanted death.
That she had wanted to go,
Because it hurt to go one with life.
So many times,
He had asked himself if he could’ve fixed things.
Every time her came up with the same answer,
No.

Even if he had tried to fix things,
He would’ve just turned around and messed them up again.
Realizing that,
Almost killed him.
The moment he realized how unworthy of love he was,
Was the same moment he swore to never fall in love again.
Because if he did,
He'd end up hurting her too.

It was the least he could do,
For her.
After he had hurt her,
As badly as he had.
She had always told him,
To treat everyone like he wanted to be.
And being left alone,
Was it.
So he could mourn her death,
And make himself suffer for what he had done.
He knew he'd never be satisfied,
No matter how much he hurt.
Nothing would change him,
Or bring her back.
Even though he wanted both,
More than anything.

Before he left,
He layed sixteen roses on her grave.
One for each year,
That she had lived.
Thirteen white,
For the years she had lived untainted.
And three red,
For the years he had ruined for her.

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  • 20 years ago

    by DevilWithin

    Yeah i love this once again. great poem.. you write so deeply and I love it

  • 20 years ago

    by Emma

    well writen and powerfull.
    Emma

  • 20 years ago

    by Red Tears Of The Soul

    Another great poem (no suprise there).
    you written it with great emotion and topped it of with him leaving 16 roses, its sad but good. "Stay strong and always move forward, no matter how hard it is leaving the things you left behind". For your question about one of my poems, its true, it was or aniversary and I cought her with her best (guy) friend of all her life (sucks.. very). It nearly killed me (literally).

  • 20 years ago

    by blackrose1011

    "one" should be on (fourth line of the second stanza)
    In the thrid stanza take out "again" after love, and take out "too" in the last line and write "again". It might make it flow better.

    It is entrestion how this ends, I like the roses... great Idea. But the poem needs work on its flow, this seems like some parts are forced. I just made some suggestions. I dont want to ruin what have done, this has so much potential! Keep working on it!!

    ~Breeze

  • 20 years ago

    by undying blusher

    You certainly have a gift for poetry...I truly love this one...yes, powerful ending. The whole thing is effective...shows what suicide does to the people who loved the person...and the regrets and guilt felt...and wondering if you could've saved the person and all...and that last part especially was put together beautifully...*tear*

    This is my favorite so far.

    xxx

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