Consequences

The week is beginining
with in mind a fresh start
to forget all the troubles
deep in your heart
take away the pain
and take away your load
begin a new journey
on a different road
take in mind
what you want to be
everything around you
and things you see
i tell you i must be fooling
who im i to fake
12lines of what i thought would be right
oh no that was a mistake
as i tryed this about 500 times
everytime i end up in a hole
with no lights to see
with a empty heart and soul
your proberly watching over me
thinking im a prat
but if you cant see i am greiving
then you are the twat
i found a answer
you are to blame
everytime i get angry
your face inlightens my flame
to start my fire
untill it burns through
where then i nearly take my life
as i am blaming you
just your name makes me angry
and your photo makes me shake
your words are just words
as they are just fake
you are gone
you are the past
if you hadnt notices
everyones moved on fast
apart from me who still wishes
you were here
but then i drown my sorrows
in a bottle of beer
becuase i no your not coming back
but it hard for me to relate
to everything going on in my head
to me your just my mate
someone who was there
for 7years or so
someone i thought was i my borther
but hey il never no
after everything
and things that were said
when people ask i decribe you
as just being dead!!
you must mean alot to me
as i would risk my life
by jumping or
cutting my hand open with a knife
you cant tell me anymore
what chances to take
as i wont be around
to face the consequences of my mistake!!

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