Dear mom!

I cut myself where no one can see
People say they no me
they really have no idea

I use to stay so quite
Let my emotions bottle up inside
And never let anyone no

Now one of my friends helped me
Now I'm sitting in your office once again
letting everything out

I tell you i want to die
you look at me in concern
you tell me i need to go away for awhile

We have done this once before
and it didn't help
now your saying i need to go away tell I'm 18

You call my mother
and were all together
she keeps saying I'm doing this for attrition

she say she understands me
but she has no idea and she keeps on yelling
I wish i could just die

they want to take me to a hospital to get help
but my mother is refusing
she wants to take me home

Were riding home now
like nothing ever happened
she says everything going to be OK

I tell her she has no idea
i think the hole way home
I whisper i hope your happy with what you have done

we are home now
you think you have a close watch on me
you look away for only 1 minute and i have the bottle

I already have all the pills down
now I'm laying on the floor happy as can be
because tonight i will sleep with a smile...forever....