I feel so lost at times I want to scream. I hide the truth from to many people. And I hate all my lies, no I am not gonna be OK. I am trying so hard not to fall apart again OK. So many doubts so many regrets how can I live this kind of life. No one understands about these silly little problems. Restroom secrets and mirror tricks. I just want help, I want to help myself. I want to know love again. I am just so hurt still. I see that now. I wish that I could change but it's so hard.
That smile I put on for you is just a show.
As I write this I cry again and again, it's what I do best.
All I ever wanted was somebody to hold me and tell me everything is going to be OK.... I don't ask for much, I just want to be happy again
