Guilt

I sit here in darkness
talking slowly to you
even though your not with me
i hope the message gets through
i always tend to talk to you
every day or at night
mostly i like to watch out the window
and see the star thats shines bright
i always no your there
to fight my battles and help me
even though i only picture a image
no body image i see
i only wish you could be sat here
tlaking to matt, mum, and gran to
i would swap places
as i dont deserve to be sat with you
you have a degree
and was going places
i am jut a complete waste of time
sat with a bunch of faces
after all of the things done
and all the things i said
you shouldnt be in heaven
i deserve to be dead
but i have learned to go on
in a way i can mend bridges that were built
but i no deep in my heart
il still stand here in guilt.