Lost all control

As my legs shake
I bite my lip
Cant concentrate
Damn Jenie, get a grip

Mind is roaming
Eyes losing touch
Cant control my hands
My fists, I clutch

Im scared to move
Fear of the fall
my world is caving
In these 4 walls

No contact for days
Am I even considered here
Ive been so lost
For the past 4 years

My hair is falling out
Along with my reality
Whats true whats false
Wheres the morality

Theres a knot in my stomach
And an ache in my soul
Things are so different
Ive lost all control