Did you really loved me?

Did he really loved me?
did he i wonder...
he used to say I love you,
so softly as a breeze in my ear,
he used to say you are my last Love
when i see him away,
he used to say He would never hurt ME
every time i cried, to not shed a tear for there will never be a reason to do so,
he used to say I'll be there
when i thought no one else would,
he used to say this is forever

Yet why did he do this,
why,
why cut so deep,
that i could bleed blue,
why cut so ragged,
so torn,
a thread could never sew,
why so shattering,
it reaches not my mind nor my heart but my soul,
why so cruel, so bottomless, so eternal, so cruel

you told another woman,
in front of me,
in front of my heart and home,
you told another woman,
all that you said to me,
in my home,

if you really did love me,
you would not hurt me so.