I'm punching holes into your sanity,
In my revenge of these tattered photographs.
As the moon scrapes along the sky
the fire within me burns
but you're still gone.
And no matter the attempts I continue to form
A heartless bearer can no longer redeem your soul.
But you laugh like you don't care, in scorn of all that is.
At all the things I've failed to be, and all of who I am.
Still I know, darling, just how much you care about their opinions.
Worthless judgments and bearers of past regrets,
You left me alone in a world of hatred just so you could smile.
Not even bloody knees could convince you
I wanted to stay.
Don't you know?
Liars don't lie quite like that.
Open up those pretty little eyes
and maybe take a look.
The shame covers your face, but not my body.
Beaten into submission, forced to be what I am.
I no longer hope.
A dog can only be kicked so much
before he turns around and bites you.
But if its better I should die on my feet
with all the dignity a wh ore can manage,
It's a step up from crawling on my belly
Like a worthless slave.
Still your close consideration cant consider that,
Not for narcissistic you.
If only I could have a piece
of the love we share for your reflection.
Shamed to have such forbidden thoughts.
I should have known love is not for those so low but..
I don't feel so broken when you look at me...
Just find it a little funny.
No, actually it's quite pathetic.
That this heart meant so little to anyone,
that you couldn't even recognize that it was missing.
This time I wont pretend to smile.
I can't stop the bleeding, you're gone and I'm leaving.
Freedom his death had promised,
Sure, I muttered.
And cows can fly.
