Blissful Pain

Never really thought about death
Till the monster inside me grew

I became a darkened angel
And figured everything would be better if my life was threw

Cried out to the darkness
But not a sound was heard in reply

Took the blade on my counter
And carved into my arm the word why...

and why i carved this word you ask?
because my blissful pain is back..

it's powerful it's consuming...but it's beautiful,
the monster is growing stronger within my soul,

i wince in pain but cry in madness,
for my blissful pain is causing happiness,

the blood runs red and its taste is bitter,
but my blissful pain is craving more flesh,

blissful pain surround me, take me in your arms,
just hold me close and cut me deep, woe me with your charms....

I wrap the darkness around me
Like a blanket to keep me warm on a cold winter night

This razor only brings me closer to death
The cuts are getting close to that vain

This monster craves the blood that falls
The tears that fall simply won't sate it

I can see only one way out of this
They would all be so happy if I left

So I take one last breath
And drag the blade even deeper.

I used to love the world
But I was a girl that no one saw as a keeper.

A tear flows from my eye
As a deep breath signals my time to die........

My blissful pain has ended it all,
It's taken me away to a place i can live,

A place that is mine, a place i can call home,
Blissful pain how you've helped me so....

What beauty it is to shed blood and tears,
Blissful pain you've ended my fears,

You've taken me in your arms,
You've showed me your strength...

My blissful pain finally took me away....

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by Broken and Worthless, MindFreak and Beautifully Broken