When You Break My Heart Like This

[rough copy of the lyrics i made for a song recently]

i thought i was impatient
but Ive waited far too long
now the arms that held me
are the ones I'm running from
in the eyes of angels
i see a hatred cutting deep
every night i hold myself
as i see him cry to sleep

and i hate the light that shines inside me
i hate the eyes that love to haunt me
i hate the way you kiss, the way you touch my lips
when you rip my heart like this

Monday afternoons I'm waiting for a call
shadows drift upon me like writings on a wall
i know just one more day,
and it can all just drift away
but i cant stop from hoping
for a life I'll never have

in the eyes of angles i see a hatred cutting deep
every night i hold myself from the things i long to keep
rising is the devil in the words you whispered past
everything I've ever held has flown away so fast

and i hate the light that shines inside me
i hate the eyes that love to haunt me
i hate the way you kiss, the way you touch my lips
when you rip my heart like this

words are worst for revenge and smiles only shed
the lies i kept on speaking
from the chains among your bed
boxed inside a broken wall that never rose to high
the screams inside are fading
as the concrete starts to fly
never again to feel such things as i have felt with you
i succumb to numbness in these veins
and believe those lies were true