Finding Illusions of Insecurity [Sestina]

Years of locked emotions suffer investigation,
Cracking at the seams you're holding so close,
Your body shakes from the thought of falling,
Now you're forced to choose fear or love,
As I continue to watch your insecure heart,
A small twinkle illuminates our relationship,

This tear holds the emotions of our relationship,
One more suspect on my new-found investigation,
Is it's origin from my beloved ones scared heart?
Or could this be a sign that we're becoming close?
I can't deny this feeling could lead to love,
Or just another illusion of my own heart falling,

Will you grab my hand and stop me from falling?
A new halt that will come over our relationship,
Could we both be too afraid to fall in love?
A new threat I will consider investigating,
Will this endless cycle allow us to be close?
Another soft beat fading from my heart,

Will I get scared and hide my precious heart?
You have another chance to stop me from falling,
Should we just pretend that our hearts are close?
A simulation of the nature of our relationship,
But why are my feelings in this investigation?
One more chance to teach me how to love,

Lets throw away these insecurities of love,
Together we can feel the beat of one heart,
Prove false the accusations in my investigation,
Showing the truth in the sincerity of falling,
I won't run away from this beautiful relationship,
Staying strong until we're ready to be close,

Just wrap your arms around me and hold me close,
Whisper the words to make me feel your love,
Show me a perfect unconditional relationship,
One that erases the insecurities of my heart,
Forcing me to lose my fears as I'm falling,
Instilling my trust - clearing this investigation,

We'll let the relationship teach us how to be close,
Together we'll investigate how to fall in love,
While masking our hearts from the fears of falling...

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I wrote this about the feelings I'm having toward my girlfriend. I'm trying my hardest to understand my situation... Writing is the only comfort I have...