Tonight im falling

I wish you where still here. holding me tightly, saying everything will be OK. but i will never see you again. you came into my life within seconds. and you left even faster. it took one trigger to many to lose my true love.
i fell to my knees. it hurts so bad not having you here. tonight I'm once again falling, but this time i cant get up. i need your loving hands to pull me up. but your not here. ever night i miss you, but all i can do is to walk outside and look straight up. i cry to have you brought back to me but god needed you so much he had to kill my happiness in the process.
i cant believe how much i need you back. to tell me that you still love me, and to hold me in your arms, to walk me to my door and kiss me for the night.
to have you pick me up, and wait for me in the hall, to kiss me when I'm happy, and hug me when i cry, or even just to tell me we will be alright.
but now your just a dream, a hope for me too see. i will have to die, so you can be with me.
but is that what you want?
to hold me nice and tight?
or would you rather me live,
and see you in the night.

this is not a poem. it is just for me to get it out of my head, and I'm hoping it works. I'm over crying but yeah. for anyone who Read this i have to say one thing. i know it ain't that good but hay, i cant keep it in