Agoraphobia

by Jessica   Oct 1, 2008


Soon I'll have to leave my room
an easy quest, you would assume
so why can't I remove this dread
ease the panic in my head

Numb the pulse of frantic veins
keep my breathing under reins
dissolve the tears in swollen eyes
embrace the sun and bright blue skies

Spent thirty days inside these walls
with daily breaks and several calls
this endless time I've had to dwell
on failed trips that went to hell

Can't breathe in any public crowd
it bursts my ears, gets way too loud
so count the seconds till I flee
it won't take long, i guarantee

An injured sense of self esteem
has driven me to this extreme
I'm terrified to let one see
the wounded heart inside of me

I'd never want to be portrayed
as someone weak, just too afraid
the truth is that i live in fear
of anyone that gets too near.

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The defining feature of agoraphobia is anxiety about being in places from which escape might be embarrassing or difficult. Agoraphobics usually avoid anxiety-provoking situations and may become totally housebound.

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  • 14 years ago

    by StillxBreathing

    Lovelovelove this. very good

  • 14 years ago

    by Lisa

    Wow amazing use of imagery and very vivid language.its a hard topic to write about yet you pulled it off beautifully.
    great job once again!
    5/5
    take care:)

  • 15 years ago

    by Bradley Peter

    Brilliant! Absolutly brilliant! I'm going to add you on my favorites, so you'll soon discover this, but I'm a truth teller. I don't deal in lies, and I genuinely think this piece was great! You've got such great wording, which gives you such a strength when it comes to rhymes. I loved the tone of this piece too. Sadly, I can't find a favorite stanza or line, because it's all equally good. I rarely do this, but I actually gave this piece a 5/5 rating.

    Brad

  • 15 years ago

    by Jessica

    Amber: you're right, agoraphobia is just like prison but with an invisible warden. but it's almost an inviting prison. because once you step outside those limits, you lose your sense of safety. you feel exposed to the world around. it's a horrible feeling. i have a combination of agoraphobia and social phobia. so i'm always feeling like someone is staring at me or judging me. i can't stand in a line at the grocery store without someone by my side (someone i trust very much) this stems from years of thinking i was never good enough. it's rooted in my head that i'll never meet the standards of a normal society. i was scared to put this poem on here, for the very reason that it is so personal. i didn't want people treating me any differently because i have this disorder. like it said, i hate to show any sign of weakness, because i'm such a fragile person in reality. i feel like someone is going to take advantage of that. but I appreciate each comment on here so much. thank you for your kind and encouraging words everyone. :)

  • 15 years ago

    by Wereallbladesarntwe

    Hi love, my mom went through years of this, when she was younger, but got through it, your poem says it all, hope you get through it too, xP

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