Just Another Freak

Camouflage at its very best, its peak,
What you see is just a blond little freak.
Fighting with every fiber at the sight of trust,
Only speaking when forced, questions are a must.

Eyes of sheer calmness yet always full of fire,
Cold at the same time as complete and utter desire.
Allegedly never in love, because I don't really care,
Always almost drowning in my own pathetic despair.

Hands filled with rings with washed away bloodshed,
I'm scary like crazy, so you pick another instead.
Never taking notes in class, never paying attention,
But my thoughts are way beyond your comprehension.

I hear you whisper behind my back, speak less, cause I can hear you,
You talk like you already know all that I went through.
Always ditching class right? Always never there,
You never even noticed my sadness in the air.

You never asked why I'm gone, it's really not that hard,
If you were less judgmental, I might let down my guard.
Behind the reputation, you created, behind my name,
I'm just someone not taking a part of your little game.

Don't judge what you don't know cause people make mistakes,
And I'll prove you wrong, no matter what it takes.
You make my life a hell, but hey, it's only you,
I know beneath your skin, you're another freak too.

I know I'm not beautiful, but you're only guessing,
But I'm slowly dying, and I don't need your blessing.
What you can see is hard, rough and white skin,
This ugly, short body I just happen to live in.