Emotions

I have so many feelings inside,
and it’s useless to deny it.
I feel too many things at once,
I’m trapped in a bottomless pit.

I feel so many emotions,
that at times it’s hard to tell.
Just what kind of thing I’m feeling,
my emotions drowning me in a well.

I always am feeling sorrow,
for I have lost my love.
Yet always I feel happiness,
from God up above.

I also feel a lot of pain,
my heart has been broken.
But I feel like I am trapped,
alone and not yet awoken.

I am trapped in more ways than one,
by many things that tie me down.
My parents smother me with overprotectiveness,
and allow me to do nothing as I frown.

But I am trapped in another way,
a way not seen by others.
This way is of the heart and mind,
the kind seen by some mothers.

This thing that traps me,
is my love for a one.
I love her as no other,
to me she is the sun.

Sadly she loves another,
her love is not for me.
I am trapped in this love for her,
this love that others do not see.

And now I wonder if I ever will be free,
free from her trap, my parents, and my emotions.
The emotions overwhelm me and I don’t know what to feel,
so I shall go on with life and my meaningless notions.