Love that i lack

This was my very favorite,
"Everything that is going on in my mind I will hide
And everybody around me will think that I am fine
But deep inside when I am all alone and without peace
All I know is its not his fault. Not in the least"

the feeling of having your heart broken but knowing it was your fault and that you could've done so much different. and now you hate yourself when you look in the mirror. you hate your reflection. amazing job with this one! you should read some of mine. they deal a lot with this same exact feeling! :) i would love to hear your feedback.

All dreams I once had when I slept late at night
They all quickly disappear as I head into the light.
Breaking down doors I have yet to see in my way
Just help me to say everything I have wished to say.

***well if i'm honest: i had some problems to understand the first stanza..it took me a while till I noticed what you want to get to.

Break my heart its OK I will allow you to do so
Because everything that happened which I know
The hurt right now seems hard and its breaking
Inside of me it is my self, I know its me I am hating

***I think this stanza isn't that bad..but not necessarily good either. It kind of lacks on creativity!!

Everything that is going on in my mind I will hide
And everybody around me will think that I am fine
But deep inside when I am all alone and without peace
All I know is its not his fault. Not in the least

***I actually like the stanza. The flow in the last two lines are not the best but it's okey.........

Right now all they see is nothing but my shell
Not the core of myself where I hide in my hell
All that is left inside of me is black
Ill take it all for the love that I lack

I really like the idea "all they see is nothing but my shell"..but still i would have tried to form it in a different way..
overall it's a good poem after this big pause..:)

I guess misery loves company because I love this poem . the emotion touched my heart
the only line that threw me seemed to have a conflict of tenses "Breaking down doors I have yet to seen in my way"

Breaking down doors I have yet to see in my way

well done