My time

Everyday I'm waking up thinking this is it.
Is today the day i end my life i end this s**t.
I try and try again but i just cant follow through.
Lord help me lead me tell me what to do.
I can not keep living this way its driving me insane.
I'm loosing my mind holding this knife.
Screw all of you.
I apologize mom i apologize dad.
I apologize baby your all i had.
To my Friends and family i apologize.
I cant live this life anymore. Its my time to die!