Post-traumatic Break Up Syndrome

There's a box and I'm caged in.
Get me out.
Help me disappear.
With a star on a cloud.
This isn't me.
Why can't I shout?
Everything I know is all you've told me.
I have no truth.
No one is listening.
Everything in sight has made me blind.
I have no use.
I'm still screaming.
Like a bloodthirsty predator
After me, the prey.
I'm dead internally and so afraid.
Break me so I'm just parts.
Because when I'm whole
You can't feel my heart.
It beats don't you see.
This monster isn't me.
Too much noise I had no choice.
Chained to ice but still I burn.
You don't get it.
Why won't you learn?
I popped the pill.
I broke the blade.
I cried in confinement
But I'm still insane.
Kick and kill.
My wounds don't heal.
Black from blue.
I still need you.
It's not ordinary
To be this fixated
I crave you so much
And other times you're the most hated.
Like a poison numbing my brain
There's no cure
For all of this
You've put me through.
Traumatized
And so out of my mind.
Suddenly I'm incapable
Of erasing the lies.
So just wipe away my tears
With your sleeve.
Why did you hurt me like this?
Why didn't you just leave?
I'll just stay here
And pretend I don't know.
That you've caused me
Post-traumatic break up syndrome.