Sitting in Class... Just another day
Keeping my mouth shut not knowing what to say,
People keep talking about a means to live
But as of right now i have no reasons to give,
Stress and heartache have consumed my soul
But i keep my guard up so people wont know,
Inside I'm broke and beaten down
Outside I'm happy and try not to frown,
Every weekend I drink myself to sleep
I lay in bed trying not to weep,
Everything that made me happy has slipped away
For what reasons should i choose to stay,
I don't feel healthy, I feel terrible
My attitude towards my loved ones is horrible,
They don't deserve the backlash of my rage
I feel like an animal stuck inside a cage,
All i want to do is to get out of here
So I can be by myself to shed this fear,
I fear that my self-conscious mind will slowly fade
But i have to be careful about the decisions made,
Because the people around that do give a shit
Might be upset, angry, or will understand that i didn't fit,
I didn't fit into society or into this "American Dream"
Because college has done nothing but lower my self-esteem,
So here I am riding the fence
And it is my brain that i cannot convince,
I'm stuck in the mud and I'm trying to get out
And I'm breaking my own rules if I dare try to pout,
People don't care about my struggles and pain
I'm all by myself laying hopelessly in front of the train,
My eyes are wide shut and I'm all out of time
I'm gonna wake up now, so screw this rhyme.
