Cutting... to Cope

It seems like everyone's mad at me,
what am I supposed to do?
I always mess up in so many ways
I never know who to turn to.

People get along with me, use me,
then later leave me all alone.
I call to talk to them but when I call
I hear only the dial tone.

What is it about me?
Is it because I cut my arms?
I did it only to cope
don't hate me because I self harmed.

People cope in different ways
they do drugs or they drink.
Why is cutting any different?
What makes them think...

...think that I'm so crazy,
or think that I'm so dumb?
Growing up in Child Protective Services
left me feeling numb.

CPS doesn't care what you went through
only that you're alone.
No family to come to rescue you
no one to talk to you on the phone.

I got hit, raped, molested, abused all my life,
it seems like no one even cared what
I went through that's why I use that knife.