Hate Him

She wants to hate him, but she just can't find the way,
Whenever he's around she doesn't know what to say.
Her chest tightens, whenever he is near,
She doesn't know why she even cares.

He's hurt her before, but she still can't let go,
Why she still likes him, she'll never know,
He makes her breathless, but he makes her sad,
She doesn't know why and it's driving her mad.

She doesn't understand why she just can't let it be,
She whispers to herself,"Why does he do this to me?"
She hates herself for being so weak,
Whenever he's around she can't seem to speak.

Her heart beats faster and she finds it harder to breathe,
Will he ever understand why she wants to leave?
He leads her on and expects her to be fine,
But he doesn't know she's nearly crossed the line.

Her cuts get deeper, she finds it harder to bare,
Where ever she goes, he seem to be there.
She hates seeing him when he's with his girlfriend,
It hurts her so bad, and she wants it to end.

She's tearing her self apart, she has no control,
She doesn't know why she can't let go.
She's reminded every day, by what she has done,
And she thought life was supposed to be fun.

She's turned to cutting to relieve the pain,
Now she knows things will never be the same,
Whenever she sees him she'll remember how much she hurt,
And hopefully soon she'll let go of that jerk.