Facing the darkness in my soul
Of what I am feeling I've never told
The numbing pain just wont relent
And I have no way to even vent
Life lost in the loneliness of love
Reaching so deep but never getting above
Bracing for the crash of hope
And barely finding a way to cope
Looking so hard for a heart I cant find
As my loss of feelings weighs on my mind
Fighting for that sense of control
But slowly digging myself a whole
Peace of mind just wont come
begging to feel something worse then the numb
Driven by the fear of what I hide
Trying my best to caged it inside
Feeling the tingle from the tips of my finger down my toes
When all in me but one piece of my heart just froze
Bitten by the freeze of emotional loss
My worlds been thrown up in a changing toss
Searching for what right against what's wrong
But for this peace I been looking for so long
Waiting to see what I might become
Maybe to the darkness ill succumb
(c) Firefly
10-20-2010
Writer note
- This poem is about the loss of all sense of control your emotions, of feeling them, having them, and letting then go and replacing them with the feeling of nothing. It about feeling nothing about anything being cold and emotionless as one could be. -
